I had fun :) ENJOYED myself too much~

This the season to be jolly falalalalalalalala~

Dinner @ F hotel


Relieved.
Papers down, things are slightly more in place. I have so mean recently, did some self-reflection and i realised it. I probably should put in more effort into r/s with people who care about me. Have been so complacent and indifferent,time to snap out of my dream.
Right now i shall not think about school work. Just focus on the holidays :)
More updates soon

Happy birthday Faruq!

Happy birthday Faruq!!

Been so long since i last wrote a proper post. I would love to, if time permits :)
Anyway, was abit cranky this week due to being overstressed but but but i love my sense of accomplishment, pushing myself beyond limits. Working nearly everyday this week but yes, i am sure i can juggle stuff pretty well. I hope.

Completed my Ebiz Assignment in like 2 days :) Yayyy. Super happy and tomorrow i am gonna go for a cruise and URA site visit before heading for work :) Wheeee. Faruq's 20th was yesterday and we had a great time chilling and having pizza. The best moment of it all was when the waiter brought out the cake and played the birthday song, his expression was beyond epic! Super hilarious. :)
I can't wait for our christmas party!!!
And the guys can be such sweetlings at times, i loved the texts my big brothers sent me/us aww <3
SOOOO excited for more outings with them, christmas parties, cruise, overseas trip, whatsoever.

Met Adeline and Brina today :)
Had old school delights and salted and starbucks, crazy eaters huh. Happy to see those girls again hehehe. Wednesday!!!

Positivity, positivity

Super swamped with school work, been feeling so snappy these few days.

I need happy people around me :)

Got to get my life back in proper working order

I feel i am the worst screwed up being on earth. I have major issues in my life and i can't handle my stuff sorry if this place has turned into some ranting site. But I am feeling so messed up and i probably don't even know what to do. I can't speak out and up for anything, i am just trapped and enclosed and i just can't tell anyone my feelings and every shit. Gosh, seriously don't know what to do. Am on the verge of breaking down. The worst part is when i push people who care for me away and piss them off. So messed, so messed up. Sorry, sorry, sorry. I don't know what's wrong with me.
God i need your grace and mercy, presence, power, strength and empowerment. ok need to get my life back in order and I need to stop messing things up.

Thank you, you you for still being there for me despite how much i changed. Because i know at the end of the day, i am still me. and I'd do my best. for you, you and you.

i really can"t stand her omg, where in the world do you find such a slut like this :/

Pressure, pressured.

Stressed like a shit. I really hate myself so much. All i know how to do is to cry cry cry when i am stressed stressed stressed. what in the world is wrong with me. right i thought i could juggle all the shit in this world when the fact is i can't.
everything is really taking a toll on me the tiredness is killing me. i feel like dying. i wish i could just creep into a hole and wallow in it. seriously. feel like cutting off contact with the world, like all means of social life, everything and just focus on my work. thats all i am thinking of now. damn everything else. srsly.

MY STUDIES ARE KILLING ME ALREADY.
and i have to do the video shit which i just realised i can't cope with. awesome. and being the damn class rep when being meticulous has never been my style not to include all the church commitments as well as work (fine, my choice) and the friendships and all that. i am going die. srsly, i cannot take it, on the verge on exploding.
the tiredness is killing me. honestly. i am gonna forsake all forms of social life. gonna go into a disappearing act soon.