Yoguru + Jensen's 22nd

Had an amazing weekend :)

Happy birthday Jensen!

Anyway I missed my babes today, didn't get to talk to them much as I had to rush off after service! It's alright, Timber next week hopefully. It's to celebrate the end-of-exams for the girls. We played some games at explosive today & I really enjoyed myself with the kids, it made me see the finally child-like side of them!

And I am really excited for the steamboat to meet my beloved gffs <3 them many many, you guys are irreplaceable, just felt like telling you girls that!

Anyway there are some kind of stuff that I have to sort out with myself like my direction in life & what is my motivation and passion in serving God in Bcm. I'm unsure. Feel like the fire is dying & the passion for the kids is diminishing :(

Aaron told me he's moving on to another dimension of serving God & God has given him direction which is good of course.

I hope I find mine soon.
Its like I'm sorry but I find it a chore to serve in Bcm. Its not that I want to feel that way but it's just the way it is :/ I'm kind of tired & I'm on duty every week & when I am I am always worship leading or sharing word. YES YES YES i know its a joy to serve but I feel tired. Maybe I need a break? I've never taken one in my 18 years. And I need to know my purpose & reason & motivation.
Coming at 1 to set up chairs and attend the Chinese service doesn't make sense to me & of course thats not the only reason but I feel like i lack the joy in serving & that should not be the case.

And thanks C for the text, <3 you loads.